Saying Goodbye

When i think about leaving for college next year the only thing that comes to mind is you. While most seniors can look forward to their final time of freedom I can only see the tears I will be crying without you by my side. I can try and act like I dont care and just drink till the sun comes up but the thought would return just as soon as the hangover kicks in. I could be like many other girls and complain about their families, friends, and basically their entire lives however, I like mine. I have a great family, although they may piss me off at times I still love them. I have great friends although there will always be drama brewing because we’re girls and what girls dont have drama? However the thought of leaving and going somewhere completely new to me by myself just makes me want to lock myself away and never leave my room. When people ask me where I want to go, I can only respond the truth. I have no clue. With the constant pressure to chose between the million of places its the what ifs that make me worry. What if I dont like it? What if i never find a place? What if I’m not accepted? What if I play sports? What if I fail out? What if I dont find friends? What if I am all alone? What if I never find “the one”? What if I let my parents down? It’s my future but why do I feel that everyone’s lives can somehow connect to one decision?